Turns out covid in my case was more like a week of good rest that I haven’t had in over 3 years :)))
My recovery was quite fast; I was officially covid negative 10 days after the first positive PCR. By then I was already able to smell a tiiiiny little bit. I got to spend Christmas eve with my family :’)
Thankfully the symtpoms weren’t so bad. The worst part was the sore throat (apparently there’s an ulcer on half of my uvula. Yes, that big.) And anosmia was kind of annoying. Also, I had to take so much meds and vitamins that I need to set a bunch of recurring reminders to make sure I remember to take it all. But other than those.. it was a peaceful period of self healing, mentally and physically.
I am truly grateful for my health. I know this virus can do so so so much worse. A friend lost her husband, another lost her father, a colleague passed away. It has been hard for a lot of people. I did not, I do not and I will not take this pandemic lightly.. and I hope you do too.
Honestly it is. Mentally, physically, emotionally okay. I’m smiling as I write this. I’m at peace.
Well of course there are things that I stress about on a daily basis.. future preps n all. It’s 1:20am and i’m still up.. there are projects and plans to think about, for a better life.. But i’m happy.. i’m quite content with what I have on hand.
I am so loved and so in love.
Thank You, God, for this beautiful family.. they’re precious to me. Please take good care of them.
This is the first video I’ve watched on the death of George Floyd after hearing it so many times. I don’t know him in any way, but it really breaks my heart to see him killed for nothing. He said he couldn’t breathe at least 16 times in 5 minutes but the police officers didn’t listen. This is such a distressing news. T___T
“We found that all four officers committed what experts said was a series of fatal actions. At least three of them were putting pressure on George Floyd’s neck, torso and legs at one point, something that likely compressed his chest and made it hard for him to breath and for blood to reach his brain. They never monitored his health, and none of them decided enough was enough and to stop. They did this even though bystanders repeatedly warned them that Floyd had become unconscious and they were possibly killing him. Floyd himself told officers he couldn’t breath 16 times in 5 minutes.” — Evan Hill, The New York Times
But I still don’t think the riot that follows the protest is justified though. What’s the looting for??? It makes me mad seeing those irresponsible people taking advantage of the situation. ARGH!
There were days when even carrying out a normal routine was so hard. It’s like a lonely battle, with no one else to help, so you had to drag yourself around and get stuff done.
Sometimes it’s so bad you thought you could breakdown any moment, and you actually look forward to that. Just let me lay down and die, or something. At least that’s a break. That would be great. You need that pause. Or stop. Whichever is available.
You know what, you think too highly of yourself! Everything will be okay. The world will not come tumbling down when you rest. They will manage.
It’s not that you’re not necessary. It would be better if you’re around. And that’s the point. You’re needed for a loooong time. Not just today. At your prime. So survive.. Live long and prosper. Take care of yourself better.
It’s okay to stay still for a bit. That pause you needed, that little rest you long for, it is just a sentence away. You just need to say it. They got your back.
For me, today everything falls into place just right. Everything seems managable. Everything is okay. It’s not perfect, so far from perfect, but it’s okay. It’s lovely this way. God, I’m so grateful. Let it stay this way.
So let me remind myself while I’m here, on a regular so so day, that things will be okay..
Somewhere along my thoughts, I just can’t help feeling very grateful that our paths crossed. We didn’t even talk or hang out that much outside the organisational activities, but I’m glad I got to know you and your beautiful souls.
We barely kept in touch since then, but I hope someday somewhere we’ll meet again. I’d love to hear your story.