I killed myself in my dream. There, it feels like the logical thing to do. My soul floats above my lifeless body, with no regret. “Could’ve been done sooner.” — it shrugged and left. Then I woke up with my usual alarm: my kids.

Honestly it is. Mentally, physically, emotionally okay. I’m smiling as I write this. I’m at peace. Well of course there are things that I stress about on a daily basis.. future preps n all. It’s 1:20am and i’m still up.. there are projects and plans to think about, for a better life.. But i’m happy.. […]

Both kids are taking a long nap. I am so grateful. I woke up at the wrong side of the bed. Everything felt awful from the time I opened my eyes in the morning although nothing was wrong. Oh, well, my baby peed the bed and I had to get up at 3am to change […]

There were days when even carrying out a normal routine was so hard. It’s like a lonely battle, with no one else to help, so you had to drag yourself around and get stuff done. Sometimes it’s so bad you thought you could breakdown any moment, and you actually look forward to that. Just let […]

Stressed out, exhausted, frustrated and sometimes depressed for no apparent reason. No. apparent. reason.

Something reminds me of you.. Somewhere along my thoughts, I just can’t help feeling very grateful that our paths crossed. We didn’t even talk or hang out that much outside the organisational activities, but I’m glad I got to know you and your beautiful souls. We barely kept in touch since then, but I hope […]

… with wordpress! Woohoo! I won’t say it’s an achievement.. not much good has come up since then. Barely any traffic, nevermind monetizing it, i don’t even commit to once a month post. 🙄But having this space to write on is something to be grateful for. Oh and I have a domain of my own! […]

Hi there, how do you do? This line up here has been put in my draft since 1 Nov 2019. As of now, I have 10 drafts in my blog — the oldest one dated back in 2012. The one I’ve just posted before this, about the passport-making process, has been there since early December […]

Gilaaaa part 1 kapan, bikin paspor kapan, jadi udah dari kapan, part 2 nya baru ditulis. (Iya, jadi tadi gue harus refresh dulu, nulis apaan di part 1). Jadi gengs, paspor si bayi unyu udah jadi dari bulan Agustus awal kemarin. Hahaha.. apakah sudah jalan2 keluar negri? Tentu saja belum. Gue dan suami juga sekalian […]